being told one thing but feeling another....

Hi. everyone.  Another one of those nights..  I cant post any of this on face book but I can here. I can vent here.  No one but a few of you know who I am.  I miss quite a few of you from here. I don't blog as often as I should anymore. but anyway.

Starting last night a girl that I work with is leaving on maternity leave tomorrow.  she left the fitting room a mess.  She was called out on it from another associate and the support manager was told to his face that this associate is always doing stuff. Well just say that support manager was not happy with this associate.   I feel like I was in the middle of this fight.  I did not want to be.  But I was standing there and kind of supporting associate in what was being said.

Well we got talked to tonight about how our areas should look and we should go above and beyond the expectations of our support.  Well I am opinionated and I have learned to talk when maybe not so good of a time to talk.  I mentioned after an
 assistant manager asked me to do something that the job was made a bit harder the way things are set up.  I told I could do the job but it makes it a bit harder.

I hate fighting for one thing.  I don't like being yelled at ever.  This assistant didn't yell but he sternly told me that I just needed to do my job.  Well I walked away but when I came back to finish my job I was in tears.  Our support asked where I thought that conversation was going.  I tried saying some thing but what was on my mind didn't make it out of my mouth.. or not the way I wanted it.

In between all this our support went and talked to the assistant for me.  the assistant said he wasn't angry at me.  just a miscommunication.  a big one too.  I am weepy lately. Holidays are coming up to fast and they are hard on me..

So that didn't help one bit tonight either esp feeling like a piece of shit.  But anyway  I was told I was appreciated and the work I did tonight went above and beyond our supports expectations. but I still felt crappy for trying to talk to the assistant.  its been several hours since that conversation and I still feel like I am under appreciated even with reassurances that I am doing well and I work hard.

I sometimes feel like I am the only one that does work.  I do my job and then I do breaks for the jewelry and fitting room.  This last Monday I ran both.  both ladies that work those departments called in and I had both sets of keys.  last night was just running an hour behind in getting things done. that does not help the mood one bit.  I sometimes wish I could go back to working part time and making money on the side.  I miss crocheting and getting things done around the house.  I feel like I don't do enough around here either since I work 40 hours a week.

I am babbling at this point of the post.  I better get to bed. Good night all and have wonderful dreams. I start my day back off at 2 P M -11 PM tomorrow.  Lets hope its a better night tomorrow.

spoiled as fudge puckers get....LOL...

HI.!!!! I am so spoiled even 22 years down the road.  Let me start by explaining what happened. Jeff has really psoriasis.  So two years ago he finally got me a set of wedding rings for our 20th anniversary.  I was doing well with them.. I would take them off at night where I wouldn't scratch his sores.... but about a month or so ago I had taken them off and put them on the edge of the table.. one of my recycling bags was under that corner.  Yes you guessed it...…  They got pushed in and I never looked to see what was pushed into the bag. bag got brought out and poof no more rings. I have felt naked with out them lately.

So the last few weeks I have been watching this really pretty set with a mans ring with the engagement and wedding ring at work. making sure it was still there. Well tonight I begged kind of hard... Not real hard actually.. Jeff cant wear the metal but I can  put it on a chain for him or I can just keep it on my chain  with my other few trinkets I have.  So its gonna take some time for it to come back but I can wait patiently... Maybe...LOL.. I am not a patient person....

We went to Spooner WI this last weekend. Bri go to see a friend she met at camp.  Kora got to go on a train ride that wasn't worth its price..  but we dealt with it.. I spent 150 dollars on books and some stuff for the girls. pencils for drawing for them.. then books for jeff and  I.. then we got a couple of puzzles.  Yes we still like our puzzles.. We don't have room for the 6000 pieces anymore.

I still crochet actively.  Always trying to sell my stuff yet. thinking about setting up another Etsy account. Anyway I suppose to better get to bed. There is more but I am to tired to think about it right now.

confused... life is a bitch sometimes..

Morning to all some where in the world.  I have been interrupted in life with some news I don't know how to deal with I guess.. Jeff says I am letting it get to me. Maybe I am but I need to vent and of course cant say what I want on facebook.. I love my dad. I miss my mom terribly. I love my little family I have been blessed with.

Anyway my dads girlfriend posts on my daughters fb page to have me call dad. I think the worst of course. Naww dad is fine.  He's healthy and still working.   But when he was 22 years old he dated this woman and you guessed it.. She got pregnant and he didn't know the baby existed. He found out two to three weeks ago.  She is now 51 years old. My dad is 73 or74.. I have lost track...

I  am feeling jealous slightly.  I am afraid hes going to see that he has biological children and doesn't want me around anymore. He adopted me from my dad when I was three.  I  have been daddies little girl for 42 years now.  I know he has two other children but I have known about them all my life. They don't threaten me in or make me feel insecure like this new person does.

What oh what to do. Dad wants us to go home to MN for x-mas. Waiting for Jeff and I to be able to request days off. Walmart the store manager can clear those days off for me but not my direct assistant. I want to meet this new person but also very nervous.  I have talked to her on facebook messenger. she seems nice enough.

anyway midnight ramblings again. Jeff and I are taking the girls to shell Lake WI this coming weekend.  We get to go on  a train ride to see all the fall colors. I cant wait. Then we are planning on going to the beach to watch the  sun set. Wish I could get my new camera by then but we don't have 300 dollars...LOL...Yes I said three hundred dollars for a camera...  Its an amazing camera. Jeff says I can have it for xmas.

OH my oh my Bri went to her first home coming dance this last Saturday. she looked beautiful. I do not have the pix uploaded to my computer yet.  I only got a couple pix. But that is enough.  She is just like her mama though.. but I don't like makeup and she does.

I guess I need to get to bed. I have to stay up for a bit tomorrow and take bri to school. she only has s one class now since she dropped her all girls choir class.  she felt she wasn't fitting in.  kind of disappointed but I guess I can see where she is coming from. anyway night to my friends who still read. Miss you all...

just midnight ramblings

HI everyone. Its me again.  Not sure whose reading these ramblings anymore. But  I have been thinking.  Maybe too much.  I love my job at Wal-mart for the most part. I have considered trying to move up the food chain. But I look at what I do and ask myself if I could do it. I question everything I do. I don't get along with one of the department managers.  I have to suffer through the two o clock zone with her.  I wanted to talk to her today. but I was busy and just didn't get around to talking and telling her how I felt.

I just feel like I am not good enough at my job some days. Like tonight I got done with my area and was asked to go help in another. I got that area done too before the person doing the area could.  I am not that good. I just move. I love to talk to people and my co workers but I also know when its time to work.

Its also like I have been thinking about setting up another etsy account.  I still try and sell my stuff but I question my abilities there too.  I feel like I failed the first time.  not sure if it was that I wasn't charging enough or charging to much for my stuff.

Bri has went back to school part time if I haven't mentioned this.  We still home school. But Bri wanted to see what school was like so she went for two classes at the local high school.  She is in 9th grade this year and Kora is considered a senior already.  Pretty wow huh?? lol …

I am feeling alone lately.  My dad is busy with his girlfriend he met after my mom passed on. They have been here a few times since but he doesn't call or leave messages..  I miss him dearly.  Life has taken a twist on me.  I am not sure how I like this feeling of being alone. I have my immediate family. I still have the girls and Jeff but its hard knowing my parents aren't here really.  Mom isn't here but I still talk to her. Dad is busy at 73 with his gf.  He has even went back to work part time because he's bored at home.

I suppose I better get to bed.  Thanks for reading even if no one comments anymore.  I miss all my blogging buddies.  I just don't like blogging when Jeff and the girls are up.  This is my time to blab and just be me for a few minutes.  Hope everyone is well.

Dear Mom and Friends

Dear Mom and friends,
I haven't been blogging much since Facebook came along.  I feel like a horrible friend sometimes. I come on when I cant post things about work on Facebook. this is my hidy hole from that world. I have lots to say tonight before I go to bed.

We still home school the girls.  Kora is going to be 18 in January and studying for her GED test.  We couldn't be more proud of  this young lady.  Sh;e still rides her horses and takes her weekly lessons for that. she is thinking about her first horse show in a few short weeks. If not then in a few months when we have a bit more money to get ready and more time.  She can cook some things She freaks out when making bacon. Doesn't like how it splatters.. LOL  Life challenges for things in life.  Small things will come to her. I hope anyway.

Brianna is going to school part time this year.  She has chosen to take art fundamentals and an all girl choir class. If they earn enough money by March they get to go to NY for a concert. I am so proud of this one too. She sings like and angel and can draw like I cant even make a comparison really.. She has some raw talent that is there.  I cant make a stick figure look good and she just looks at something and can replicate it.

Jeff works for a place that builds portable x ray machines for the military.  Its kind a cool really. I have seen one they were working on a few months ago.  He has even designed a few of his own ideas. He thinks hes stupid and could have done better in life. I don't think the world was ready for him.  Or he the world.

I am working at Wal-Mart yet.  I have been there almost 3 1/2 years now.  I listen to people talk all day long. I make no non sense conversation with people  I don't know for eight hours a day. I fold clothes and clean up after people who don't seem to care how the store looks.  I was told about a year a go that I would make either a good support manager or a good Department manager.  I don't believe any of that any more. I will be stuck with what I have and what ever I decide to do with what I have.

We live in a mobile home and have for five years now.  We are behind on our mortgage by almost for months again.  We struggle every year in September I don't know why. Does anyone else have a month or two in the year that seems the hardest to get ahead?

bris 14th bday pix from June 9th 2018. how we all have changed.

she hates her pix taken but a friend took a profresional looking pix of her anyway.

kora and one of her riding lessons and her friend 

Back at it I think.....

HI every one. Its been along time. I have finally gotten my own computer where I can blog again.. I have so much to say but not sure if any of my friends still blog since facebook came along. I know I got side tracked with that myself. 

First off how is everyone that is reading this.  I miss all my friends I have met here. Life is a whirl wind around here. Kora is still taking lessons for horse back riding. Bris active in her church  life.  I am working full time. Not in my degree. But Jeff is doing great and works in his degree. So at least one of us didn't waste our education.  

Kora is going to take her GED this year.. She will be 18 in January.  Bri just turned 14 in June.  Where has time went.  My babies are growing up way too fast. We have went on two family vacations in the last two years.  

Last year we went to South Dakota. Have many pics but not sure with the new  laptop on how to get then on here.  Then this year we went to Minaqua WI.   Beautiful place. Not sure if I will go back there. But nice for a once seen  vacation. 

Its been four years since mom passed away in may.  I miss her dearly .  Life just seems so lonely lately.  I know I have my friends but its not like just calling mom up and babbling.  Then I work at Wal-mart.  We have these two girls that don't do a dang thing. ones pregnant and feels like she is above all work codes.  I have told her shes pregnant not broken.  Tonight was the worst of it.  She told me and another co worker that she doesn't need to help with anything when shes in the fitting room.  I went to our direct assistant manager with this information. 

I think I pissed her off but I don't care anymore. I am old enough to be her mother.. Just a young pup..  She between 20-24.  Not sure.. she wont admit how old she is.  I promise later today I will see about adding some pics and up dated photo's of the girls on here.  They have grown so much since the last time I added photos.

where has three years went

I just realized i havent posted anything in three years.  holy rumbles... I havent been doing much lately with life. I am still crocheting but not much social stuff.  I work full time at Wal mart. My days off are spent with the girls. They are now 13 and 17.  Kora is studying for her GED.  Bri is in 8th grade this year. Still home schooling them.  Jeff is with a great company.  He works for a company that  makes hand held x ray machines.  I have seen the product kinda. Really cool. 

I havent been told by the girls that either one of them hate me directly  yet but still waiting on that phase  of life.  Kora has told  us she doesnt want to finish growing up. So to me that is close enough to be told  I am hated...LOL..I have pix of the girls but nothing on the computer yet.  I  have them all on my phone yet. I am lazy when  it comes to transferring them. 

My mom will be gone 4 years May 3rd already too. I  cant believe life has taken us this far.  I miss blogging but I always forget to come visit. I hope some of my friends see this at least. I kind of dropped off the face of the earth for a while. I dont have to leave for work for about half hour so I thought I would let everyone know I am still around some where..

I will be back late this week with updated photos of everyone. I promise.  Its just hard for me to remember everything. Talk at you all later.  Nicole...

Our time in South Dakota

Hi all. I know I am late posting these. We spent 2 1/2 months in South Dakota. Jeff was working for a place that had him installing security cameras and such. He was working in Pine Ridge South Dakota. Yes the one and same as in Thunder Heart the movie. We had an awesome time. Hundreds of pix were taken and I lost some because they were left on his work phone he had to give back to the company when they let him go and I hadnt had time to take them off before they said he wasnt right for the job.

We saw the black hills.  We have pix of the bad lands. A horse sanctuary with over 500 wild stallions.  We went to a real mammoth sight where they were still digging up mammoth bones to this day. Amazing time. I was going to stay home but I just couldnt do it. I didnt want to  stay home for almost three months by myself with the girls. So I packed us girls up and we took Snowie with us and we drove from Wisconsin to South Dakota.  It was an interesting trip if nothing else. A bit hard on me because I have never driven that far by myself and esp with two young children. I know they arent babies anymore but still they couldnt share the driving.

We got there and got settled in and bought some small appliances where we werent eating out every night. And I made meals in a 3 quart cock pot and a one burner hot pad.  It was cool if nothing else. We washed what dishes we had in the bathroom sink.  You do what you have to do to make things work.

one of the caves. kora didnt want to go with us.  it was cool down under the ground. I cant remember which one this was.

Cosmos. If you ever get to go to SD please go here. It was an interesting experience. 

Reptile Gardens.  Different kinds of reptiles. There was a snake show that we saw. Got some pix but not the best.

jeff hates w hen I post pix of him but couldnt help posting one family photo of our trip/work experince.

these two here were very noisy from up above. By the time we got to the bottom floor where they were they had been put back in there cage. Beautiful birds though.

Hope you enjoy and I can and will post more pix later sometime.  Miss you all just don't have much time lately..

EEEKS School has begun and Its almost halloween...

I am not sure where this summer  has gone again.. But I have been at my job at WalMart since May 5,2015 and we were just selling summer stuff and kids getting ready for summer. Now they are back in school and we are selling Halloween costumes.. I cant believe it.

The girls got to go to a JJ Heller concert if any one knows who she is.  They even got to meet her. they have pics but they are on my camera yet. I havent uploaded them  to the computer yet. just been lazy lately. We did laundry and mowed the lawn yesterday and then cleaned out one of my cabinets.  A neighbor lady gave me some onions back this last winter. Forgot about them and they rotted pretty good. took some bleach and pinesol to it.  It seems 100% better in here.  She gave us lots of stuff that I didnt eat and we have tossed because of expiration dates. If its past the date I wont eat it.

Life in the R house hold is busy lately.  I have been crocheting some. I just finished some dish cloths and I have made some more scrunchies.  I am still working on an afghan for the back of the couch. Its just multi colored from all the little ball of yarn I have laying around and they arent big enough to make anything with.  I havent worked on that all summer. Too hot to have that across my lap.  But otherwise we have all been working on something.  Jeff and I at work and the girls helping around the house.  I cant believe Bri got glasses.  I will have to upload there pics from the concert. She has them on there.

I just realized how much I really don't like oatmeal..  But I almost passed out at work this last week because I didnt eat enough breakfast.  Being a diabetic I have to eat and I didn't have time to eat the other morning and plus no sleep.  I get where once in a while lately I cant sleep at night.  I can sleep ok if I go to bed around midnight but any earlier than that I turn and toss lately.

I know I am rambling again. To answer a friends question in my last post. No I am not with Etsy at this moment. I still havent paid my last etsy bill and I was looking at starting up another one on friday with new information. My bank info in the last one is wrong because they shut my account down because I couldnt pay them. I am hoping if I start a new shop it will go better.  Thinking about keeping it to smaller items this time instead of afghans and everything.

Ok peeps. 45 minutes till I have to be at work. I have to get going. Hope all has a good day and I will be back soon to check on everyone.

hey where has the year went....

hiya there my friends. those that still blog alot.  I have been missing in action again. I have changed my profile a bit again. I have changed the looks on my blog. then i updated the photo's I though needed updating.  the girls are growing like weeds and I cant keep up half the time. I miss blogging but don't know what to blog about half the time anymore. I feel empty sometimes.

I lost a great friend, grandfather figure and just a great man early yesterday morning. He was a friend of my mothers father. He was 87 years old but always there to cart us kids around when we needed a ride and just be there.  He will be missed dearly.  I wish I could go home to his funeral but of course finances are standing in our way.  Life is just  a bitch lately.

I finally told my dad how I feel about his new lady friend. That hasn't went over too well. He said they want to come visit in September but I am not so sure I want her here. I want my mom not some other lady in my life. I am afraid of forgetting my mom.  I know its been a year but I don't want to forget the good times with my mom with a new woman in the picture. He lives with this woman and that scares me too for when he gets sick and needs medical decisions done for him. He hasn't married her and tells me he won't  but its still scary to know he might in fright of him getting sick.

I am enjoying my job at walmart I started on May 5,2015.  I am a cashier and I enjoy my job lots. Get to talk to many people in one four hour shift. Its not full time but it gives us enough to look upon every other week besides Jeff's full time job. He was offered overtime the next couple of weeks so he's taking that with a grain of salt. Just wish we could get caught back up on bills and such.  We get behind every year around this time and then we struggle to catch up until tax time.

I am babbling I know but just trying to catch up with all in my thoughts like usual since I don't post very often anymore. I have been going to the Library and getting some pretty amazing books.  I don't usually have ideas for books in my line of vision I just go and pick out what looks appealing to me.

I just finished one that was about this FBI agent who  talks to ghosts.  He finds out that the lady  he is suppose to protect can talk to them also.  So they end up finding out who killed the man of  this ranch that was for people with addictions and rescue animal.  Its called The Night Forever by Heather Graham.  I enjoyed it.  I rather read the large print books lately because I hate wearing my glasses all the time.

Anyway I need to get going. I will try and post more later.  Thanks all for those that still post and say hi. Miss you all but I just havent been blogging. N...

New Zibbet Account

Hewwo again.. I have a new zibbet account set up and its running. I only have a few small items posted. i wont be putting anything big on my new account. It doesnt seem to sell well.  I am trying headbands and hats for starters and if things start to go well I might make it where I put a few bigger items. but for now we will stick to headbands, hats and removable flowers and wrist bands.  But the link is this www.zibbet.com/nbk . I can make just about any color hat, or head bands with matching flowers and pompoms.  I use my hot glue gun to attach the alligator clip and pompoms to the flowers.  Anyway if you want something either send me  a message for those that are facebook or just message me off of zibbet. Not sure if you have to sign up to look but let me know if you do. I have looked at stuff and wasnt asked to sign up.  Might have to sign up to buy but you wont have to use that for anything.Can make sales with out having to go through zibbet either. Let me know what you like.  

Its been a while again.

Hi all. Its been a while again.  I havent given up just haven't known what to post really. I have pix of the girls and I have my crafting ideas. I have been in a slump since mom passed away a year ago May 3rd already.  I have been told by my dr that I have to lose about 30 pounds or she is going to have to put me on that third medication I really don't want.

I got a more steady job this week at Walmart here in green bay.  i was told if I can prove myself to the manager that does the scheduling I can get up to 32 hours a week. i am going to learn my job and be there. I am not going to be late unless I absolutely have to be.

Kora is really into her horses and briannas into playing chess. She has played in two tournaments but hasn't done so well. she gives up easily. I love my family but every one is in there own little worlds lately. I was told today that my mother in law and her partner are getting married July 10th. well it came to a he said/she said thing but  there are no he's here to say anything.. LOL..  I just plain assed forgot and its a big deal. I have alot going on here to worry about than whose getting married even if it is a family member sometimes. I am rude and just don't care.

anyway this is what I have been working on and some updated pix of the girls for my friends.

i made these three headbands and removable flowers for a friend of mine.

wrist cuffs. I think they are adorable.

hat with removable flower. The flower is used with an alligator clip on the back.

one of my crochet flowers with an alligator clip on the back. i used my hot glue gun to put the pompom on it.

one of koras drawings. she copied it from on of her coloring books without tracing it.

Wow its 2015 Already

Where did 2014 go?  I have no clue myself.  We have had our troubles last year and it may not be as good this year.  I have had the last two weeks off because of the operators at my temp job werent there to work on the jobs I know how to do.  They won't hire me permanently because the boss feels I won't have operator abilities in two years. I see that as a crock of shit.  Just an excuse not to hire me.  but I need the money so I keep going back.

Jeff is working in the field finally but not sure how long its going to last. He talked to one of the big people last night and they said his production is down. Well they know its slow right now and they keep telling him not to worry but now they are saying his production is down.  Go figure.  I hate companies like that.

The girls are growing like weeds. Kora will be 14 January 13 already and Brianna will be 11 in June.  Where has time went for me being a mom?  I am blessed with two amazing daughters though. I love them more than I can imagine. I miss my mom alot these days. My dad has found a lady friend. Not sure how I feel about that one. I have talked to her on the phone and I have her on my Facebook page but its hard to know that he is seeing someone this close after my mom being gone. My mom has been gone since May.

Jeff and I are looking at renewing our wedding vows in June. I didn't get a real wedding the first time. So we are looking at doing it right the second time.  My best friend from high school is going to be my matron of honour and the girls are going to be the brides maids.  Then a friend  of ours is going to be Jeffs best man.

I miss being out in South Dakota. Jeff was working out there last year in March to till late April. Right before my mom got sick. Then we had to make a mad dash home to see her. She was supposed to have come home to the nursing home but complications to the pneumonia she had. She quit taking care of herself after she had her gastric bypass surgery done.

This is my my Miss S and our adopted stray Mendly.  Brianna named her Mendly because it rhymed with friendly and she was always trying to be friendly.  I was looking for other pix but cant find them. I didnt post any photos of our time in South Dakota.  I did on Facebook but not here. I miss all my friends on here and hope to get back to blogging more this year. Happy New Year my friends.

Lost my mom today!!

Hi my bloggy friends who still blog. I have lost my mother today. she had that gastric bypass surgery back in September.  Well she decided she thought was best for her.  she quit taking her protein pills and shakes. Well when you don't have enough protein in your body the water in your blood goes to your lungs.  Well that is what happened. she quit taking the protein and her lungs filled up twice. The second time she walked out of the hospital before the treatment was done and she was told she was a walking dead woman. Well she would forget where she was at. Who she was talking to.she would totally forget what they were doing. My dad was getting up to change sheets half way through the night because she couldnt hold  herself.  While we were there at the Hospital the other day she asked the therapist how a walking dead woman looked.  she was laughing about it. It hurt so much for her to talk like that.  When my dad called today with the news I couldnt even talk to him.  I just keep thinking on how fast it went because she seemed ok. Now she is gone.  I dont know what to say. I feel like crying but I also feel numb inside.

I have pix for you of everything we have done in the last few months but I dont have them on my portable hard drive. they are on my phone. We went out to South Dakota with Jeff for his job.  We had been out there for almost two months.  It was a blast.  We saw Mount Rushmore, a wild horse sanctuary, the bad lands. A few other places. It was so cool.

OK Ok peeps I have to get back to making dinner.  Talk to you all. please if you want to talk to me you can find me on face book.  some of you know my real name. if you do you are welcome to message me there. I have my phone on me at all times. my messages come to me directly.

from my new phone.

Hey all. Trying to see if its possible to post from my new phone. Jeff got a new job a m di needed a new phone with gps on it. He is traveling for his new job. he is installing security systems for jails and prisons. Good money. We are planning on following him for awhile. I was going to go back for my bachelors degree but decidrd not too. I am having a hard time finding work with my associates degree so I put my bachelors degree on the back burner. 

Jeff and I have dreamed of traveling and now this gives us that chance. We are looking at getting an RV and traveling. We think it will b fun. 

The girls are growing so fast. Kora turned 13 in January. Bri will be ten in June. Can I put a stop button on them and slow them down. 

Before I can add pix from my phone I need to update my something or another.  Ok lets see what happensa with this post. Talk to you all soon.

Another Year Has Passed Me By!!!!

Hi All. I have been missing again. I am sorry I have been so dang busy with life. I miss all my friends I have made on here.  I still don't think as many people blog anymore as when i first started.  But I have graduated from college. Working on my Bachelors Degree. i was going for Cyber Security but decided to change my Majors by going into Project Management instead.  I was suppose to have started classes Monday but two  people dropped out of the classes and now we have to either wait a week to see if they can replace those two people or then we have to wait a quarter to see if we can get two new people in next quarter. Life has taken a toll on us.

You all know we were losing our old house. Well I went to get our shovels and one small box of books I had left in the basement. but one small problem with that. they finally locked us out. they had new locks and the door had one of those key code things on it.  Oh well. I am just happy to be done with it.  I don't even miss it. So much more work there than in the new home.  I am enjoying my new home. I have a fire place in my living room that we use quite frequently.

the girls are growing like weeds. I haven't taken any updated photos in a while. I need to do that for you all. I am still trying to sell my crocheting on Zibbet.  I haven't made a sale yet this year. Wish I could. I need the money right now.  Always.. We have hit a hard spot. Jeff is no longer at Pomp's Tire and hasn't been since September. He got hired by a temp agency in what we thought was his field of study but found out about three weeks ago that they didn't like what he was doing. Well in the first place he wasn't being trained in the job that they offered him.  Plus it wasn't in his field of study.  But he has had a job offer with another company that he is suppose to start with this week..

X-mas is going to light this year if the girls even get one.  Not sure what we are going to do about it. Jeff got a new job and not sure when he starts.  He got let go from his last new job. He thought he was doing so well but they didnt train him to do the job so they let him go saying he wasnt doing the quality work.  WELL DUHH!!  Anyway things are ok here..  OK I need to get going. i promise updated photo's soon.. Will post more soon. Nik.

Lots and Lots of stuff going on here....

Hi all I have been telling you all I have lots of stuff going on. Well I do.  I graduated as I told you in my last post. I almost walked out of my Bachelors Degree because I just couldn't focus on school and my job. Well Sunday at 10:52 AM I texted Jeff and asked him how mad he would be at me I walked off the job. Well he wasn't happy but he said if it made me happier I could do as I wanted to. So I clocked out and came home. I have been truly happy for the last few days. i have been smiling and spending time with my babies that I just couldn't do while working 13 hour days. and I decided to stay in school. I also might have a job in the field next week. Just waiting to see what happens with the Temp agency i am working with. 

We got our trailer house we have been waiting on. Our house for closed and they sold it back to the bank and we have to move. They wouldn't work with us to save the damned thing but we started looking for a trailer house about two months ago when Jeff go this new job in his field of study. He went into Electronics and then when he graduates in December here he wants to go back for a year and a half again too and go for the programming degree they have. it wont be a bachelors degree but he will have two associate degrees. that is just as good as having a bachelors degree i have been told.

I have arthritis in my pointer finger and my middle finger on my right hand. I can barely move the middle one some days. Its hard to write and crochet and do other things.  We are still home schooling the girls. They still love every minute of it. They are growing up to quickly.  I have more photo's for you here in this post that I took while the girls were gone in September. 

I am still a diabetic but keeping my blood sugars under control and I have lost 25 pounds since last December when i found out i was a Diabetic.  I am still trying to lose more weight as of now. I have been active around the house trying to get things packed up. I still have the livingroom today for the most part of what needs being packed. Or what i can pack.

So alot going on right now and I need to get my photos in here and get to my chores before leaving for school tonight. I have to bring Jeff some dinner at the school because he wont have time to come home and eat and then leave again....

thes next three photos are just parts of the trails we walked on. a beautiful day to be our and about.

this one i took my camera and put the lens through the fence to get this one nice and clear.

these last four photos are just awesome.. this is the closest they have ever been to me while taking photos.

I am finally a college GRADUATE!!!!!!

Hi guys and gals. I have been missing in action again for a while and just havent gotten to posting anything. I have lots of pix to share and my life with you. But afraid to share in case potential jobs find me on the internet.  Its scary from what we have been told. We have been told that some jobs require us to open up our Face Book accounts for them to see what we post and such. I will not be opening my FB account for anyone anytime soon. Even if it means I don't get the job. but here are some photo's of graduation.

the room the school rented for graduation. this was before the ceremony.

me in my cap and gown waiting for the photographer to take the group photo.

our practice run before the actual ceremony.

me with my program chair.  she is really sweet.

right as the actual ceremony started.  the girl you see right there by the edge of the front of the pix. she had just had her baby two days before hand. i call that tough and wanting to get her degree.

the last stage of graduation is getting our covers to our diplomas which will be here shortly in the next week or so.

Wow its been a While

HI all. Its been a while again. I have been busy with work and school. I have three weeks left of my Associates Degree. Can you believe that?? I am so excited and nervous at the same time.I am having a hard time with finding a job in my field of study though.  I keep looking and I keep hoping really. Jeff has had interviews but with him not graduating till December of 2013 he cant get into many of his positions he has applied for. They require travel and he has to be here for school.  But we are all excited. I promise to post pictures when I am done.I am going back for my Bachelors Degree. Classes start one week before my Associates Degree Graduation.. 

The girls are doing great. They are going to go spend three weeks with grandma in September and come home on my graduation party.  We are doing it at Bay Beach. Our local Amusement Park. Its the last weekend of the year they are open. I wish I could get my videos uploaded to my blog but for some reason they wont let me.  I have some awesome ones to show you guys and also I will have one to show you in about two weeks. 

I am sorry I am bouncy with my posts like usual. they are both enjoying there horse back riding lessons. Kora didn't do so well this last time because she wouldnt kick the horse to get him to listen to her. but other wise they are enjoying themselves. They are learning how smart horses are really. they were asking this one horse questions and he was actually answering them with yes and no answers. It was funny when they told me this last night before I fell asleep on them finally. I have been wore out from my job. 

I have some photos from all over the last few months. I wont post them all in one sitting and I hope not to take three months to make another post. I just havent had the time or energy to do much lately about any of it. But I will  post some here in a minute. We had a party at our house here last weekend. it was fun. A friend of ours and his wife own a Karaoke Business and they brought the system into town to our house. We had lassagna for those that came early and hamburgers and hotdogs for those that showed up later.  We had a few beers and soda and water. They even got me to sing a couple of songs. I dont think I will be doing that again but it was fun while it lasted. 

Enjoy the photos and I will keep you all posted on whats going on here in the next few months. I am graduating September 26th and my graduation party is September 28th.  Its been a long road but I am willing to make it even though it might kill me in the long road. I want this so badly. Take care my friends.

snowie isnt to fond of dogs but this friends female boston terrier likes her.

me and the girls. I have lost 30 pounds since posting pix of me.

our friends system in our living room. it got to cold outside and it started to rain.

me and bunny hunter.  my one eye looks horrible. I had no clue I was allergic to him. I just love how soft he is.

me, brianna and hunter the bunny.

me, hunter the bunny and kora.  isnt he cute. I am allergic to him and didnt know it. my eyes were swollen shut