hey where has the year went....

hiya there my friends. those that still blog alot.  I have been missing in action again. I have changed my profile a bit again. I have changed the looks on my blog. then i updated the photo's I though needed updating.  the girls are growing like weeds and I cant keep up half the time. I miss blogging but don't know what to blog about half the time anymore. I feel empty sometimes.

I lost a great friend, grandfather figure and just a great man early yesterday morning. He was a friend of my mothers father. He was 87 years old but always there to cart us kids around when we needed a ride and just be there.  He will be missed dearly.  I wish I could go home to his funeral but of course finances are standing in our way.  Life is just  a bitch lately.

I finally told my dad how I feel about his new lady friend. That hasn't went over too well. He said they want to come visit in September but I am not so sure I want her here. I want my mom not some other lady in my life. I am afraid of forgetting my mom.  I know its been a year but I don't want to forget the good times with my mom with a new woman in the picture. He lives with this woman and that scares me too for when he gets sick and needs medical decisions done for him. He hasn't married her and tells me he won't  but its still scary to know he might in fright of him getting sick.

I am enjoying my job at walmart I started on May 5,2015.  I am a cashier and I enjoy my job lots. Get to talk to many people in one four hour shift. Its not full time but it gives us enough to look upon every other week besides Jeff's full time job. He was offered overtime the next couple of weeks so he's taking that with a grain of salt. Just wish we could get caught back up on bills and such.  We get behind every year around this time and then we struggle to catch up until tax time.

I am babbling I know but just trying to catch up with all in my thoughts like usual since I don't post very often anymore. I have been going to the Library and getting some pretty amazing books.  I don't usually have ideas for books in my line of vision I just go and pick out what looks appealing to me.

I just finished one that was about this FBI agent who  talks to ghosts.  He finds out that the lady  he is suppose to protect can talk to them also.  So they end up finding out who killed the man of  this ranch that was for people with addictions and rescue animal.  Its called The Night Forever by Heather Graham.  I enjoyed it.  I rather read the large print books lately because I hate wearing my glasses all the time.

Anyway I need to get going. I will try and post more later.  Thanks all for those that still post and say hi. Miss you all but I just havent been blogging. N...