hey where has the year went....

hiya there my friends. those that still blog alot.  I have been missing in action again. I have changed my profile a bit again. I have changed the looks on my blog. then i updated the photo's I though needed updating.  the girls are growing like weeds and I cant keep up half the time. I miss blogging but don't know what to blog about half the time anymore. I feel empty sometimes.

I lost a great friend, grandfather figure and just a great man early yesterday morning. He was a friend of my mothers father. He was 87 years old but always there to cart us kids around when we needed a ride and just be there.  He will be missed dearly.  I wish I could go home to his funeral but of course finances are standing in our way.  Life is just  a bitch lately.

I finally told my dad how I feel about his new lady friend. That hasn't went over too well. He said they want to come visit in September but I am not so sure I want her here. I want my mom not some other lady in my life. I am afraid of forgetting my mom.  I know its been a year but I don't want to forget the good times with my mom with a new woman in the picture. He lives with this woman and that scares me too for when he gets sick and needs medical decisions done for him. He hasn't married her and tells me he won't  but its still scary to know he might in fright of him getting sick.

I am enjoying my job at walmart I started on May 5,2015.  I am a cashier and I enjoy my job lots. Get to talk to many people in one four hour shift. Its not full time but it gives us enough to look upon every other week besides Jeff's full time job. He was offered overtime the next couple of weeks so he's taking that with a grain of salt. Just wish we could get caught back up on bills and such.  We get behind every year around this time and then we struggle to catch up until tax time.

I am babbling I know but just trying to catch up with all in my thoughts like usual since I don't post very often anymore. I have been going to the Library and getting some pretty amazing books.  I don't usually have ideas for books in my line of vision I just go and pick out what looks appealing to me.

I just finished one that was about this FBI agent who  talks to ghosts.  He finds out that the lady  he is suppose to protect can talk to them also.  So they end up finding out who killed the man of  this ranch that was for people with addictions and rescue animal.  Its called The Night Forever by Heather Graham.  I enjoyed it.  I rather read the large print books lately because I hate wearing my glasses all the time.

Anyway I need to get going. I will try and post more later.  Thanks all for those that still post and say hi. Miss you all but I just havent been blogging. N...

New Zibbet Account

Hewwo again.. I have a new zibbet account set up and its running. I only have a few small items posted. i wont be putting anything big on my new account. It doesnt seem to sell well.  I am trying headbands and hats for starters and if things start to go well I might make it where I put a few bigger items. but for now we will stick to headbands, hats and removable flowers and wrist bands.  But the link is this www.zibbet.com/nbk . I can make just about any color hat, or head bands with matching flowers and pompoms.  I use my hot glue gun to attach the alligator clip and pompoms to the flowers.  Anyway if you want something either send me  a message for those that are facebook or just message me off of zibbet. Not sure if you have to sign up to look but let me know if you do. I have looked at stuff and wasnt asked to sign up.  Might have to sign up to buy but you wont have to use that for anything.Can make sales with out having to go through zibbet either. Let me know what you like.  

Its been a while again.

Hi all. Its been a while again.  I havent given up just haven't known what to post really. I have pix of the girls and I have my crafting ideas. I have been in a slump since mom passed away a year ago May 3rd already.  I have been told by my dr that I have to lose about 30 pounds or she is going to have to put me on that third medication I really don't want.

I got a more steady job this week at Walmart here in green bay.  i was told if I can prove myself to the manager that does the scheduling I can get up to 32 hours a week. i am going to learn my job and be there. I am not going to be late unless I absolutely have to be.

Kora is really into her horses and briannas into playing chess. She has played in two tournaments but hasn't done so well. she gives up easily. I love my family but every one is in there own little worlds lately. I was told today that my mother in law and her partner are getting married July 10th. well it came to a he said/she said thing but  there are no he's here to say anything.. LOL..  I just plain assed forgot and its a big deal. I have alot going on here to worry about than whose getting married even if it is a family member sometimes. I am rude and just don't care.

anyway this is what I have been working on and some updated pix of the girls for my friends.

i made these three headbands and removable flowers for a friend of mine.

wrist cuffs. I think they are adorable.

hat with removable flower. The flower is used with an alligator clip on the back.

one of my crochet flowers with an alligator clip on the back. i used my hot glue gun to put the pompom on it.

one of koras drawings. she copied it from on of her coloring books without tracing it.

Wow its 2015 Already

Where did 2014 go?  I have no clue myself.  We have had our troubles last year and it may not be as good this year.  I have had the last two weeks off because of the operators at my temp job werent there to work on the jobs I know how to do.  They won't hire me permanently because the boss feels I won't have operator abilities in two years. I see that as a crock of shit.  Just an excuse not to hire me.  but I need the money so I keep going back.

Jeff is working in the field finally but not sure how long its going to last. He talked to one of the big people last night and they said his production is down. Well they know its slow right now and they keep telling him not to worry but now they are saying his production is down.  Go figure.  I hate companies like that.

The girls are growing like weeds. Kora will be 14 January 13 already and Brianna will be 11 in June.  Where has time went for me being a mom?  I am blessed with two amazing daughters though. I love them more than I can imagine. I miss my mom alot these days. My dad has found a lady friend. Not sure how I feel about that one. I have talked to her on the phone and I have her on my Facebook page but its hard to know that he is seeing someone this close after my mom being gone. My mom has been gone since May.

Jeff and I are looking at renewing our wedding vows in June. I didn't get a real wedding the first time. So we are looking at doing it right the second time.  My best friend from high school is going to be my matron of honour and the girls are going to be the brides maids.  Then a friend  of ours is going to be Jeffs best man.

I miss being out in South Dakota. Jeff was working out there last year in March to till late April. Right before my mom got sick. Then we had to make a mad dash home to see her. She was supposed to have come home to the nursing home but complications to the pneumonia she had. She quit taking care of herself after she had her gastric bypass surgery done.

This is my my Miss S and our adopted stray Mendly.  Brianna named her Mendly because it rhymed with friendly and she was always trying to be friendly.  I was looking for other pix but cant find them. I didnt post any photos of our time in South Dakota.  I did on Facebook but not here. I miss all my friends on here and hope to get back to blogging more this year. Happy New Year my friends.

Lost my mom today!!

Hi my bloggy friends who still blog. I have lost my mother today. she had that gastric bypass surgery back in September.  Well she decided she thought was best for her.  she quit taking her protein pills and shakes. Well when you don't have enough protein in your body the water in your blood goes to your lungs.  Well that is what happened. she quit taking the protein and her lungs filled up twice. The second time she walked out of the hospital before the treatment was done and she was told she was a walking dead woman. Well she would forget where she was at. Who she was talking to.she would totally forget what they were doing. My dad was getting up to change sheets half way through the night because she couldnt hold  herself.  While we were there at the Hospital the other day she asked the therapist how a walking dead woman looked.  she was laughing about it. It hurt so much for her to talk like that.  When my dad called today with the news I couldnt even talk to him.  I just keep thinking on how fast it went because she seemed ok. Now she is gone.  I dont know what to say. I feel like crying but I also feel numb inside.

I have pix for you of everything we have done in the last few months but I dont have them on my portable hard drive. they are on my phone. We went out to South Dakota with Jeff for his job.  We had been out there for almost two months.  It was a blast.  We saw Mount Rushmore, a wild horse sanctuary, the bad lands. A few other places. It was so cool.

OK Ok peeps I have to get back to making dinner.  Talk to you all. please if you want to talk to me you can find me on face book.  some of you know my real name. if you do you are welcome to message me there. I have my phone on me at all times. my messages come to me directly.

from my new phone.

Hey all. Trying to see if its possible to post from my new phone. Jeff got a new job a m di needed a new phone with gps on it. He is traveling for his new job. he is installing security systems for jails and prisons. Good money. We are planning on following him for awhile. I was going to go back for my bachelors degree but decidrd not too. I am having a hard time finding work with my associates degree so I put my bachelors degree on the back burner. 

Jeff and I have dreamed of traveling and now this gives us that chance. We are looking at getting an RV and traveling. We think it will b fun. 

The girls are growing so fast. Kora turned 13 in January. Bri will be ten in June. Can I put a stop button on them and slow them down. 

Before I can add pix from my phone I need to update my something or another.  Ok lets see what happensa with this post. Talk to you all soon.

Another Year Has Passed Me By!!!!

Hi All. I have been missing again. I am sorry I have been so dang busy with life. I miss all my friends I have made on here.  I still don't think as many people blog anymore as when i first started.  But I have graduated from college. Working on my Bachelors Degree. i was going for Cyber Security but decided to change my Majors by going into Project Management instead.  I was suppose to have started classes Monday but two  people dropped out of the classes and now we have to either wait a week to see if they can replace those two people or then we have to wait a quarter to see if we can get two new people in next quarter. Life has taken a toll on us.

You all know we were losing our old house. Well I went to get our shovels and one small box of books I had left in the basement. but one small problem with that. they finally locked us out. they had new locks and the door had one of those key code things on it.  Oh well. I am just happy to be done with it.  I don't even miss it. So much more work there than in the new home.  I am enjoying my new home. I have a fire place in my living room that we use quite frequently.

the girls are growing like weeds. I haven't taken any updated photos in a while. I need to do that for you all. I am still trying to sell my crocheting on Zibbet.  I haven't made a sale yet this year. Wish I could. I need the money right now.  Always.. We have hit a hard spot. Jeff is no longer at Pomp's Tire and hasn't been since September. He got hired by a temp agency in what we thought was his field of study but found out about three weeks ago that they didn't like what he was doing. Well in the first place he wasn't being trained in the job that they offered him.  Plus it wasn't in his field of study.  But he has had a job offer with another company that he is suppose to start with this week..

X-mas is going to light this year if the girls even get one.  Not sure what we are going to do about it. Jeff got a new job and not sure when he starts.  He got let go from his last new job. He thought he was doing so well but they didnt train him to do the job so they let him go saying he wasnt doing the quality work.  WELL DUHH!!  Anyway things are ok here..  OK I need to get going. i promise updated photo's soon.. Will post more soon. Nik.